Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year!!


Thank you to all my loyal followers! I love reading your comments and hearing what you have to say!

Stay up and many more blessings to come with 2009!! Everyone be safe tonite!!

Monday, December 29, 2008


growing up i used to believe in fairytales and had the hopes and dreams of one day becoming a princess and finding my price charming. now that i am older i am much more wiser. fairytales are not real; neither is "prince charming". hearts are meant to be broken and lessons learned. with each experience in life you have to take the bad with the good. that's life. maybe one day i will learn to love again; but for now it all seems like a childish dream that has been outgrown.

JuJu nd KrystaL.

last Saturday at Belo. Epic Saturdays.

12-29 Thought For The Day:

One thing I've learned. It's far better to live alone than to live a lie.
So keep your head up and always look to the sky!

Sunday, December 28, 2008


Dammn... good axx game!!! Loved every second of it..


Playoff's here we come!!!

-- and Dallas, i'm so disappointed!!

a dose of JuJu. ♥

12-28 Thought For The Day:

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

recap. =]

hahah.. dont even sleep on ya girl juju ;)

last night was sooo much fun!!! i LOVE my girls!!

the limo was off the chain - like a personal extended axx club inside that b!tch!
then to the club.. VIP of course ((the only way we roll)), walked straight in & to our table; bottle service and like TI says "we can have whatever we like" haha. Shots of patron & poppin bottles of Goose and Crystal like it was nothing..
dos muchos! Then of course afterwards we had to get our grubb on!

*these were jes camera phone pics.. more better pics from the whole night to follow later x0x0.

Friday, December 26, 2008

simply deep.

Is anybody home in there?
I unexpectedly dropped by your heart
I simply wanted you to hear
The cry of my love's never ending start
Impossibly escaping you
And circumstances never stand a chance
So intrigued by the things you do

Through my eyes I vision you
Your love protects my every move
And my life sways to your heart beats
My everlasting love is simply deep

Each second spent is timeless
When I'm with you, time seems to take a rest
No routines ever lay with us
Cause everything is new, when you're in love
So delighted that you feel the same
You say with me you're never liable to pain
Never love another again

Through my eyes I vision you
Your love protects my every move
And my life sways to your heart beats
My everlasting love is simply deep

As I lay you in the midst of ongoing creation
Me as a whole, can only think of you
And you breathe the air that surrounds the every move I run
And I never sleep, without endless dream
Of love so simply deep
Between you and me

*from the love of fxckery ;) lmao; thks reggie!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

new look.

got my hair done last sunday.. cut and colored.. whatcha think?


Merry Christmas!!!

Have a blessed & wonderful day with your loved ones today!
Many blessings for the year to come.. x0x0.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

juju nd chingy.

epic saturdays at belo. more photo's soon ;)

mia; my apologies.

sorry i have been mia lately - life's been crazy. what was going to be a wonderful christmas is slowly turning into the worse christmas seasons ever. i truly believe i am the definition of murphy's law. what could go wrong; will go wrong. i have decided i am not meant to love or be loved. sorry i haven't been checking out the blogs lately or staying ontop of mine.. i promise to catch up later right now i jes need to take some time to reflect. happy holidays everyone.

7 pounds.

So after reading Lelani's blog yesterday I decided to finally stop being lazy and go check out Will Smith's new movie "Seven Pounds". Let me tell you.. I was REALLY lost for the most part of the movie; and even noticed a few people getting up to leave but decided to stick it out knowing it HAD to make sense at some point and live up to the expectations.. and by the end; it finally did! I def see what Lelani was talking about cus towards the end I was sitting in my chair crying my lil eyes out. Will Smith is such a wonderful actor. If you haven't seen this movie; go check it out! If you have.. let me know what you thought! =)

Friday, December 19, 2008

12-19 Thought For The Day:

Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

12-18 Thought For The Day:

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream;
not only plan, but also believe.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Promoters Appreciate Night.

Come show love!! Send Names by 5pm tomorrow.

12-17 Thought For The Day:

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
While loving someone deeply gives you courage.


okay i know i have already blogged about this album but i was listening to it again on my way into work and i jes can't say how much i love it!

i didn't give rainman enuff credit in the last blog so it get's its own special shoutout. haha.

as i am driving into work; pouring rain outside and this song is playing.. it truly touches my heart.. enjoy.

"There's no need for me to lay out my clothes,
When shes not around there's no where to go,
Make no attempts getting up out of this bed,
I wanna open my eyes but I just close the curtain instead,
Her thunderstorms shuts my lights off,
I got no missed calls; maybe by tomorrow
cause right now I can't just catch a break

Everyday it rains; when she ain't laying right here
I can feel the coolness in the air
I know my chances ain't far
everyday it rains; would it be jus my window seal sound
reaches my ear go then it reappears
everyday it rains; my heart starts drowning
my vision gets cloudy
the flood moves around me
everyday it rains; no sign of the light as the time goes by
40 days and 40 nights"

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

T.O. gives his side..

Jamie Foxx; Intuition.

This cd is def the bizness. I would def recommend if you didn't go cop this; you need to! Jamie Foxx never seems to disappoint me. Always coming with something new and fresh and inspirational.

Each track on Foxx’s third album, tells the story of a different woman. The boss-type gets her due on “She Got Her Own,” a slowed-down reworking of Ne-Yo’s “Miss Independent.” On “Overdose,” he sings to the one whose affection is so elating, he cannot function without her. Love as a drug is certainly a trope seen before, but the rattling in Foxx’s vocals throughout the song sells his pain as if it were brand new. “Digital Girl” is an ode to the click-and-send girlfriend. ‘Ye is quick to dispel any embarrassment about using the Internet to meet chicks, saying, “it’s a new form of mackin’/Don’t be old fashion/update your passion.” “Just Like Me,” the first single and album’s opener has T.I. and Foxx trading quips about their girls’ (and their own) cheating hearts.

Personally I'm about plug in the ipod and jamm out while personally feeling "Why", "Slow", "Overdose" and "Love Brings Changes" which I have added as the first few songs to play on my page so def check it out if you haven't already!

01. Just Like Me - (featuring T.I.)
02. I Don't Need It - (featuring The-Dream & Kanye West)
03. Number One - (featuring Lil Wayne)
04. Digital Girl
05. Blame It - (featuring T-Pain)
06. She Got Her Own - (featuring Fabolous & Ne-Yo)
07. Intuition Interlude
08. I Don't Know
09. Weekend Lover
10. Why
11. Freak'in Me - (featuring Marsha Ambrosius)
12. Slow
13. Rainman
14. Overdose
15. Love Brings Change

12-16 Thought For The Day:

To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that prisoner was YOU.

Monday, December 15, 2008

UNT!TLED; okay.

despite how effn CRAZY today was and all the countless bullshxt that kept going on from my job; to my car; to everything in btwn.. in the end today ended up being "okay".

Like the "Thought For The Day" on 12-12 sed:

Everything is okay in the end; if it's not okay, then its not the end.

I was close to finally loosing it today. So much has been going on lately I keep asking when "enuff" is going to be ENUFF! From all the drama the past few weeks to the little shxt that keeps happening; today's bullshxt had jes about put the icing on the cake.. but for some reason i jes kept on trucking and taking care of business; keeping my head up to the sky like nothing or nobody could stop me or break me.

Finally wrapping today up; headed to bed. Not much to say except;
everything will be okay..

Chow for Now.

kick rocks.

ugghhh i am so tired of STUPID AXX IGNORANT PEOPLE!!!

hella frustrated today and irritated!!!

STUPID PEOPLE KICK ROCKS & leave me the FXCK alone.

12-15 Thought For The Day:

Worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Taking a chance wit Love

In most people eyes, finding that one true love is that ultimate goal in life. You go through so much bullshit to find it, that sometimes when you discover it, you are battered and torn. What is life without love? Is the freedom of being single and alone that great that many people flee the greatest challenge in the world, and that's being with one person for the rest of their lives?

a friend of mine decided to share this with me.. and i was so inspired by what it said; i decided to share it. i feel like everyone needs to read this; and def take notes. its some for ur axx..


"Let's go through some of the advantages and disadvantages of being single. When I was single and wild, I had some of the funnest times of my life. The stories and the memories are enough for ten men. I was a celebrated athlete most of my young adult life. I am tall, black, attractive and educated. I have no kids and pretty much have been able to talk to most women I've been attracted to. Not because I look that much better than most men, maybe it was my charm. Who knows, but I sure in hell took advantage of it.

The advantage of being single had me getting up everyday free of stress and free of guilt. I could come and go as I pleased. When I went out to a club on the weekends, I didn't have to worry about checking in or feeling bad I stayed out late. When a woman who didn't know me approached me and asked if I had a woman, I use to say it with pride, HELL NO!!!! I never understood why people wanted to be in relationships, everyone that I knew, were not happy. It was drama all the time. Who wants to be in anything when there not happy? Not me. When you are working a job that sucks or the pay isn't that great, most of the time you seek other avenues. Relationships should not feel like a job!! The single life really allows you to focus on life and discover who you really are as a person and what you want for yourself. But sometimes it can be a disadvantage and throw you off course.

For some, being single is a big party. They can go out and hang with their boy or girls and just kick it all the time. I believe in the saying, "Misery Loves Company". Many of my friends are single or heartbroken from past relationship. So the fact that you're free to talk to and hang is there therapy for their selfish reasons. Watch how many people change when you're happy in a relationship and not able to go out like you use to. I seen many friends come and go for these reasons. Mad cause you're happy and in something they wish they were in. So what happens is that the friend turns on you or tries to convince you that relationships suck and you don't need to be in them. Real friends are happy for you and want to see things that are good in your life work. Fake friends, have you out in clubs all the time or in situations that jeopardize the one thing good in your life and never care how your personal life is affected. As long as you are there for them, they are happy.

Remember those days when it was storming or freezing outside? You all always want a person to cuddle up with. You say to yourself I wish I had someone to snuggle up with. I know I have said that many times. Or when the club is played out and the same people are there. You're like I wish I had someone to just chill and watch a movie with. When people get what they want, they usually don't want it anymore. The reasons are a mystery. You always think the grass is greener on the other side. When actually it is the opposite!!! You may be in a rocky relationship and you think to yourself, maybe it's someone better out there for me who has more or looks that much better than the person you're with. When actually it's the curiosity picking at your pride. The fact that most people happy seem to be boring to most single people is funny. I was that single person who looked at couples and thought, that has to get boring. But I didn't know what love meant. I was really the boring one. Going to clubs every weekend and meeting girls. Going on dates, spending money on strangers and never seeing them again. No matter how smooth I appeared to be. Every night for the most part I would go to bed alone, even when someone was there with me. I didn't know that person, so to me I was alone.

That's a horrible feeling. Being single is pointless!!!

I can guarantee to all of the people that think being single has more to offer than being in a relationship, your fooling yourself. There is nothing like the feeling that your significant other birthday is coming up. Or Christmas, New Years is around the corner. What about those plans to take a cruise or party in Vegas with some of your friends together. The nervous feeling of meeting someone parents or friends for the first time; is a rush that is beautiful. It's like a championship game tied in the fourth quarter.

Have you ever gotten bad news about a friend or family member and you cried like a baby. For some they have did that alone, no one there to comfort them. No one there to tell them it will be ok. I think the fear of being vulnerable to people makes them cold hearted. I was that way and many people I know are.

That's the wonderful thing about taking a chance with love. You put your heart out there to get broken. But the award is without a doubt worth the risk. The chance to find a person that you don't have to be fake for. Someone who laughs at the most stupid things you do and think they are so cute. The person, who allows you to be imperfect at times but still, loves you for it. Someone who tries just as hard to help you succeed with your dreams and you would on your own.

Knowing someone cares about you as much as you do for yourself is the reason why taking a chance with love is worth the risk of being heartbroken. Things happen. People breakup or sometimes a person who appeared perfect for you is not. But the world will go on like it did the day before you discovered that the person you with is not the one for you. You have to believe someone is out there searching for you.

Me knowing how miserable being single is, even when it appeared that I was having fun, it is not as fulfilling as taking that chance with love. I don't want go out and come home to an empty bed, wishing someone special was there. Even if you're lucky to bring someone home, do you really want them there or is it, self pity that you gamble your heart and health with a stranger.

Many people say all the time; I know what's out there in the clubs or the dating scene. I'm sure the lack of motivated, honest, caring and loving people can fill up a NFL stadium in any city alone. But many people never grab on to the reality that there is more in the world for them than a 4am bed time. What does that do for you really? Did you make yourself happy you partied until the early morning or you were flirting all night with an attractive person who appears to be a good guy or girl? When you wake up in the morning to brush your teeth or wash off the makeup you left on the night before, ask yourself a question. And that question is this!!!! Am I really making myself happy doing what I'm doing or am I trying to please others? Because if you're making yourself happy with what you're doing, keep doing it. But if you are doing things to keep friends happy, I hate to say that you're being fake to yourself. Go and find happiness and take a chance to love someone and I'm sure you will be rewarded."

Thanks Teck for sharing this story with me.

UNT!TLED; alone.

still hurt confused and yet alone. feeling like i have nobody to turn to and nobody to trust; wondering where do i go from here? so therefore in order to protect myself and protect my son i am cutting everyone and everything off. i trust nobody. the people who say they are there for you; usually aren't and i always end up disappointed in the end. so if i trust nobody and dont expect shxt; i wont be disappointed, right? let's see how this works. from here on out; its jes me and you babyboi.


okay so i found out that i got scammed! dang; that's fxcked up! like i said i usually never give to folks on the street but i found out this same lady is pulling the SAME story in mission valley to other people and has been doing it for a while now.. hummphh i outta go find her axx and give her a piece of my mind.. haha.. nahh but its jes crazy cus i was in the christmas s pirit and felt generous and come to find out; i got taken advantage of.. so everyone in daygo beware of this chic and this story so you dont get scammed like we do; and never again will i give to someone in need on the street.. so sad people take advantage of folks nowadays. owell.. we live and learn!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

in the spirit;

i was headed to eat this evening when stopped by this lady in the parking lot; now normally i am pretty rude and jes keep walking but for some reason i decided to stop and hear what she had to say.. she first off apologized for interrupting us and began to tell me "her story" - which it seems everyone has when they are stopping to ask you for something; usually for money of course. surprisingly i sat and listened to the whole story and first off she said she had jes come down from oakland to take her kids to sea world and the zoo or something like that; i guess she sed her boss gave her some free tickets and they took a road trip down here to go. well, she sed her car was stolen from that very parking lot where i was jes parked.. humm; that struck me as kinda odd cus i dont usually hear of too many cars being stolen from a restaurant in mission valley.. ((and ur from oakland again??)) but for some reason; again, i continued to listen. she explained how she had already contacted the shelter downtown and they had agreed to let her and her two daughters stay the night. she sed she left her purse and luggage in the car when it was stolen ((again; strikes me as odd - but strangely enuff i would do that at times; but never again will i)) and had no cash left to get a hotel, etc. so as she continued to tell her story; explaining how the police came and did a report but assumed her car was probably halfway across the border by now. by this point you could tell she was fighting back tears in her voice as she apologized and said she was so embarrassed to have to even stop and ask a stranger for help.

i cut her off, not in a rude way but it was chilly out and i was hungry, and asked her what exactly she needed to help her and her family out tonite. she simply stated all she needed was help with getting on the trolley to take downtown. now it is very odd for me to have cash on me, but for some reason i had a little cash on me that i hadnt spent yet and decided to go ahead and give it to her. i had never seen someone so grateful for what seemed like change i would have probably wasted on something i didnt need anyways. she called her daughters out and away they went on the trolley. she seemed very humble and grateful. i didnt give her much; but i hope i did help with what she needed tonite.

this incident got me thinking tho. how often do we really blow off strangers thinking they are jes out begging or asking for something when they dont try to help themselves.. and what if those people are really average every day people like us; who jes so happened to catch a case of bad luck and needed jes that lil extra something to get them where they are going or back on the right track? honestly if something happened to me out here, i would pretty much be in the same situation she was. she had no family here and not many people to call - whatever the case; i am glad i could help.

Complimenting my "Completeness".

Never say someone completes you. We have to feel whole even when we are by ourselves; for needing a certain someone is not love, but dependency. Wanting a person to become a part of your life is the best reason for having them. So rather than search for the someone who will complete you, wait for the person that will compliment your completeness.

Friday, December 12, 2008

fav. comic: love is.

i love these comics - they jes seem to always be what i am feeling at the moment.. they are so hard to find now a days tho but a new one is created each day.. enjoy these - i'll post more another day =]

Keston Karter.

So I was put onto this beautiful man by my homegirl Gaby.. and am sharing this post thanks to a blog I jes checked out by Reggie. This one's for you :)

and my favorite one cus i am a sucker for a sexii back...

<3 enjoy ladies! see more of him here!

12-12 Thought For The Day:

Everything is okay in the end; if it's not okay, then its not the end.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

rihanna; rehab.

"When we first met I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow"

"And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
And now I feel like....oh!"

"It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease"

12-11 Thought For The Day:

Live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Thanks. Teck.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

yahoo says:

"You are projecting an aura of calm -- despite how you may feel deep down inside."

DAMN. right on the money.

i'm such an astrology freak. but they are normally soooo on point i cant help it!

myspace banner; ad.

okay so i signed on to check my myspace a minute ago and noticed that this is almost ALWAYS the banner at the top..

overweight at 24?? ok.. looking at the picture more closely.. this is GROSS! wtf?! it saddens me too becus sooo many people get on myspace; including young girls.. and if they have to look at this daily and be reminded of their flaws that's jes crazy. that is not healthy and it makes me sick looking at that ad everytime i go onto myspace.

ughh.. ok sorry jes had to vent!


directions: once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog with sixteen random things, facts, habits or goals about you. at the end choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. don’t forget to leave them a comment (“you’re it”) and to read your blog. you can’t tag the person who tagged you. since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog, so i can see your weirdness.


one: fact - i am slightly "OCD" haha. everyone makes fun of me cus i am very particular. like when you come to my house for the most part; everything has a place and if it's not in the place i go somewhat crazy til i put it back there. not saying i am a clean freak or crazy like that; but certain things, for example my shoes; have a certain spot they always have to be in.

two: unknown fact - growing up; i used to be a vegetarian! like whole-heartily would not touch meat or anything that contained meat. lived off salads and baked potatoes for years. now i wasn't a vegan cus i would eat eggs and cheese and things that were made from animals; but def NO MEAT for me! later on in life i was sucked into some chicken and that shxt tasted so good i had to have MORE! then there went my "vegetarian stage" lol

three: ex-goal - previous career choice; a lawyer. my mom & i used to swear growing up i would be a lawyer cus i would sit there and argue my point up and down until i won or got my way. let's jes say i have a natural talent for it.

four: habit - texting; i HATE talking on the telephone. i mean i will if i have to; but i really prefer not too! i would much rather jes send a simple text and say what i have to say; let you say what you have to say and be done with it. i hate that ackward silence people sometimes get on the phone where you are both like "weelll ummm okaay" haha.

five: fact - eating habits; i got REAL bad food poisoning at the beginning of the year off stupid effn hamburger meat and now REFUSE to eat ANYTHING that contains ground beef or even looks similar to it! its to the point if i am even around someone cooking it; i get nauseated. one night after out partying all night; i decided to "try" to get over it and ordered a hamburger.. after one bite let's jes say the burger was NOT in my stomach any longer!! yuckk!!

six: fact - becoming grown; i have lived basically on my own since i was 15 yrs old. i got my first full time job at 15 yrs old while trying to take care of my crackkhead axx daddy ((a whole 'nother blog)) and was forced to pay all the bills to support us while he partied and maintaining going to [high]school all day. let's jes say - made me grow up real fast.

seven: ex goal - famous; i agree with laalaa - we all grow up wanting to be a STAR! i def was one of those children too! i used to go to different modeling conventions and pagents and diff things like that. when i got older i modeled some ((still do to a degree)) but it used to be my passion and life goal! now i'm more focused on being a mommy to my son first. he's growing too fast!

eight: random fact - california; i had only been to california ONCE before deciding that it was going to be my dream to live here. i always knew texas wasn't the place i wanted to spend the rest of my life and as a child fell in love with california and vowed that one day i would make it here; and guess what bitches; i did!!

nine: random fact - doors; okay so this may go back to me being slight "OCD" as i previously mentioned but i CANNOT sleep with any doors open. it's like a weird phobia or something. i have to have the closet door; bedroom door; and bathroom door closed. not cracked - CLOSED.

ten: goal - school; due to life's difficulties of being a single mom i had to drop out of college a few years ago. got too hard financially and not having anyone to help watch my son. i took all the classes i could in my degree plan that could be done online or where i was able to make it on campus and got to the point i was jes "stuck" while still having to work full-time. so my goal is to def go back and finish school.

eleven: random fact - college; speaking of.. i gave up a full-paid scholarship after finding out i was pregnant. it was either not have the baby and go to college; all expenses paid. or give up my dreams and start new ones with something i created. needless to say; it wasn't an option and i now have a beautiful son and wouldnt change it for the world.

twelve: fact - hair color; yes it is a fact that i have dyed my hair jes about EVERY color you can imagine. i even went thru a phase where i had purple hair ((didnt look good when fading; turned into an ugly grey)); pink; blue; you name it i have done it. finally over that phase and sticking with my different blondes and browns.

thirteen: random fact - lucky 13; ((sorry laalaa; im opposite!)) everything for me usually happens around the number 13. my son was born on july 13; his soccer number is usually 13; my fav day is friday the 13th hehe. idk; always been my thang and my lucky star number.

fourteen: fact - bitch; yes i have bitch, well excuse me "The Bossy Bitch" tattoo'd on my foot and i wear it very proudly. i am a bitch; a very good bitch at that. and piss me off; i will show you an even better bitch.

fifteen: fact - obsession; i am VERY VERY much obsessed with Hello Kitty. yes it may be childish; but something about that lil kitty that is jes 'hot' to me! i used to get sooo excited as a little girl when my mom used to take me to "sanrio surprises" and i could get a goody bag!! now i am jes on my 'grown woman tip' and buy the shxt myself hehe.

sixteen: fact - my fault; as you may be able to tell from my other blogs; my fault is putting other people before myself. i have a kind heart deep down in there despite as hard as i may seem at times. i will give my last all to help someone in need; despite what it is that i may want or need in life. when i love; i love hard; giving it my all. it's either all or nothing with me.

- daaannnggg laalaa; that def had me stumped and thinking!! haha - thanks tho mamas! enjoyed it and i hope yal enjoy really getting to know more about me!!

here are my 'fly-axx' bloggin' ten i tagged:

Super Woman | Divina | Ashley | Omie | AnJL | Mr. Getz Bizzy | C. Jervis | TaylorGotBeats | LipGloss Mafia | Nanna |

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

new look <3

.. compliments of laalaa!!! enjoy it cus i sure do!!

thanks mamas!!! love it and love ya!!!

The Mom Song

hahah.. something us Mom's can relate to ;)

12-09 Thought For The Day:

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.


i came home today; numb and in a daze. finished off the drink and came to bed; pillow drenched in tears as i laid there asking the Lord why do i have to keep going thru this? why dont i deserve to find that person who will love me for my flaws and all? i put my all into this; and for what? to end up alone and hurt. you opened me up to love again when i thought it wasnt possible. but never again will i be that foolish. i am putting a chain and lock around my heart and closing her up. not only did you hurt me; u fooled my son which makes the situation even harder. he doesnt understand whats going on and expecting any minute for u to walk thru that door. he will realize one day that youve already took your last steps thru that doorway. so now i lay here with a bad case of isomnia. you keep rushing thru my mind. how unfair the situation is; how you can sit there and look me in the eyes and fill my head with hopes - dreams - promises; then rip them all away from me like it never meant anything to you in the first place. its like a paper cut; the shxt happens so fast and burns like a muthafxckka but there wasnt much i could do to prevent it and not much i can do to heal it. only time and a lil "tlc" will mend it. u said u were my best friend; that you'd always be there for me and never leave. i guess i jes have the worse luck with friends. if a best friend makes me feel like this; i'd rather be alone for eternity. so now i lay here; cant sleep.. not even knowing what else to think.

Monday, December 8, 2008

UNT!TLED; perfection.

i sit here hurt; confused; mad; lost; unsure. pondering what if? and why?? how can someone you love give up so easily on something or someone? anything worth having is worth fighting for. guess not everyone lives by the same rules and philosophy's in life. i will never be "that"; but honestly i never thought anything was wrong with "this" in the first place. i strive daily for perfection. to mold into this creature my half wishes me to be. but honestly there is no such thing. true love is not loving a perfect person; but loving an imperfect person perfectly. i have grown so much spiritually; mentally; emotionally. i just wish you could see. but i guess in the end this was never permanent for you - only temporary.. simply just "passing time" until the next best PERFECT thing.


01. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

02. Marry a man/woma n you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

03. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

04. When you say, 'I love you ,' mean it.

05. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

06. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

07. Believe in love at first sight.

08. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

09. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

10. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

11. Don't judge people by their relatives.

12. Talk slowly but think quickly.

13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

14. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

15. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

16. When you lose, don't lose the lesson!

17. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

18. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship..

19. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

20. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

21. Spend some time alone.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

12-08 Thought For The Day:

Your time is as valuable as your money; so pay attention to who you spend it with.

Friday, December 5, 2008

TAGGED; - *Blog Interrogation.

So I've been tagged by; LaaLaa ;)

hahah thanks mamas!! Needed something to past the rest of my work day by!! heh.

-*Blog Interrogation Rules;

A.)Pass this on to 7 people:

Mz. Minnie
Juicy Kisz

*** was gonna send ya to ya c. jervis but i know u don;t feel like blogging right now.. feel better soon!! if u need something to keep ur mind busy do it too ;) heh.

B.)Answer the following questions using only one word.

1. Where is your cell phone? DESK
2. Where is your significant other? AIRPLANE
3. Your hair color? BLONDISH
4. Your mother? TEXAS
5. Your father? DISAPPOINTMENT
6. Your favorite thing? SHOES
7. Your dream last night? IRONIC
8. Your dream/goal? IN-PROGRESS
9. The room you're in? OFFICE
10. Your hobby? SHOPPING
11. Your fear? SECRET
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? HERE
13. Where were you last night? HOME
14. What you're not? SIMILAR
15. One of your wish-list items? SHOES
16. Where you grew up? MESQUITE
17. The last thing you did? TYPED
18. What are you wearing? CLOTHES
19. Your TV? HOME
20. Your pet? TEXAS
21. Your computer? PINK
22. Your mood? TIRED
23. Missing someone? YUP
25. Something you're not wearing? SHOES
26. Favorite store? MAC
27. Your summer? FORGETTING
28. Love someone? VERY
29. Your favorite color? PINK
30. When is the last time you laughed? EARLIER
31. Last time you cried? YESTERDAY
32. Are you a bitch? ALWAYS
33. Favorite Position? whilesleeping? ANY
34. Favorite Past Time? BLOGGING
35. Are you a hater or a lover? LOVER
37. Are you genuine or fake? GENUINE
38. Any Vices? LUST
39. Pro Life or Wire Hanger? PRO LIFE
41. Pro Plastic or Natural? NATURAL
42. Dream Job? FAMOUS

nd that's a wrap for the day -- btw sorry guys i have been behind on blogging and commenting been a busy crazy week but i promise to catch up very soon!! ;] chow for now!! x0x0.

12-05 Thought For The Day:

"Faith is like electricity. You can't see it, but you can see the light."

Thursday, December 4, 2008

20% off - hot shxt.

Check these items out and more at karmaloop!

12-04 Thought For The Day:

Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn’t know you left open.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Big Los's Bachelor Party -

THIS FRIDAY @ Belo. Get at me to get listed.

12-03 Thought For The Day:

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keep You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only God keeps You Going!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

12-02 Thought For The Day:

Thoughts are like arrows: once released, they strike their mark. Guard them well or one day you may be your own victim.

Monday, December 1, 2008

dec 1st - CHRiSTMAS!

let the countdown and shopping begin!!

yay!! i love the holidays!! =)

tv series;

OKAY, thanks to mz. minnie; dauche nd anjl i am NOW addicted to True Blood on HBO! I sat in the house, no joke, ALL WEEKEND watching episodes 1-12 via On Demand. I can't wait for it to come back on next season in '09!

btw. anjl i'm soo down for the soul food and true blood watch party!! lol

ps. in the meantime i am super stoked Nip/Tuck is finally coming back on in January!!

footLocker RespondS.

** update regarding gift card post.

Dear JuJu:

As you are a valued member of the Foot Locker family, I would like to take a few moments to address the misleading information regarding our Company that has been circulating the Web and covered by the general media. Much of this information is being used to encourage consumers to avoid purchasing gift cards this holiday season.

We can assure you that our financial position remains strong and we continue to be a leader within the athletic retail industry. From time to time, we do close underperforming stores, in the course of normal business, in order to concentrate our efforts on those stronger-performing stores that ultimately allow us to better serve our customers.

During this holiday season and beyond, we will continue to offer an extensive selection of the most sought-after products at our more than 2,000 U.S. stores and on-line at, and And, of course, our gift cards will continue to be another great gift idea and are redeemable at all of our stores and on-line.

Thank you for your support.

Best regards,

Stacy Cunningham
Corporate Vice President
Foot Locker, Inc.

12-01 Thought For The Day:

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Gift Cards; bad Christmas idea.

Jes a reminder to everyone who's out there starting your holiday shopping..

if you tend to give gift cards around the holidays, you need to be careful that the cards will be honored after the holidays. Stores that are planning to close after Christmas are still selling the cards through the holidays even though the cards will be worthless January 1. There is no law preventing them from doing this. On the contrary, it is referred to as "Bankruptcy Planning". Below is a partial list of stores that you need to be cautious about. Also any cards you may have now and been saving them you may want to cash them in real soon.

Circuit City (filed Chapter 11)
Ann Taylor- 117 stores nationwide closing
Lane Bryant, Fashion Bug ,and Catherine's to close 150 stores nationwide
Eddie Bauer to close 29 stores
Cache will close 14 stores
Talbot's closing down specialty stores
Pacific Sunwear closed all d.e.m.o stores & unsure about the remainder PacSun stores
GAP closed 17 stores and plans to close 115 more stores
Footlocker closing 334 stores more to close after January
Wickes Furniture closing down and filed bankruptcy
Levitz Furniture closing down remaining stores (filed Chapter 11)
Bombay closing remaining stores (filed Chapter 11)
Zales closing down 82 stores and 105 after January but opened more outlets
Whitehall closing all stores (filed Chapter 11)
Piercing Pagoda closing all stores ((not sure abt this didnt see it on snopes))
Disney closing 98 stores due to new ownership.
Home Depot closing 15 stores
Macys to closed 11 stores
Linens and Things closing all stores ((not sure abt this didnt see it on snopes))
Movie Galley Closing all stores (filed Chapter 11)
Pep Boys Closing 31 stores
Sprint/Nextel closing 125 stores
JC Penney closing a number of stores after January ((not sure abt this didnt see it on snopes))
Ethan Allen closing down 12 stores and 2 service centers.
Wilson Leather closing down all mall stores
Sharper Image closing down all stores (filed Chapter 11)
K B Toys closing 356 stores (filed Chapter 11)
Dillard's closed 20 stores and plans to close more soon

OMG - this is ridiculous! the economy is jes HORRIBLE right now. I checked this out on snopes ((always do before sending out stuff like this.. gotta make sure my facts are strait)) and it's true. You can check it out more in detail and about all the store closings and MORE info here.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

libra today:

You don't have to splurge at the spa to look and feel amazing. It doesn't hurt to indulge when you can, but eating antioxidant rich foods and getting plenty of rest and exercise will keep you radiant.

smh; damn. must've known i sure was gonna go get a manicure and pedicure today after work.

check out what your's says =) here.

11-26 Thought For The Day:

True love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008


How to Spot a Fake Diamond:

While it's a safe bet that the blue box (Tiffany's) diamonds are genuine, many dishonest vendors sneakily rip off customers by selling similar-looking but much less expensive diamond-like stones. These criminals count on their not-so-savvy clientele to trust that their jewelry uses real diamonds. By neglecting to check out their jewelry before purchasing, many hopeful diamond buyers unfortunately end up spending their money on costume jewelry. The love in many marriages and relationships might be very real, but the diamonds in their jewelry are often not. Diamonds might be one of the hardest substances on Earth (real ones are nearly indestructible) but they're fairly easy to fake.

There are many synthetic stones that have very similar appearances to the diamond, including cubic zirconium (also known as CZ), zirconium silicate and white sapphire. However, there is one faux diamond whose appearance is almost identical to the real thing. To the untrained eye, a moissanite stone has the same shimmer, sparkle and brilliance of an actual diamond. It's nearly as hard as one, too. Diamonds might be a girl's best friend, but moissanite is giving it a run for its money. While moissanite is not as low priced as a CZ stone, it looks tremendously more realistic and it's still much less expensive than an actual diamond. This one-carat moissanite ring from is only $760. That's more than six times less than a diamond ring of the same size. If you're on a budget, you might want to consider this hidden gem.

Still think that only diamonds are forever? Make sure that your new bling is the real thing. Protect yourself by following these steps BEFORE purchasing ((or ladies check the rocks you got now)):

- Make sure that the diamond isn't damaged. Most diamond substitutes (except for moissanite) are made up of a much softer substance. This causes the stone to easily chip and scuff.

- Make sure the diamond isn't too perfect. While you don't want nicks and cracks, most genuine diamonds have a few imperfections within the stone, even if they aren't visible to the naked eye. Ask the jeweler for his or her loupe and survey the stone under magnification. Ironically, a common faux-stone giveaway is its lack of imperfections. The replica is often just too perfect to be believed.

- Look for luster, brilliance and fire. Good diamonds aren't dull, and it's nearly impossible for synthetic stones to duplicate their natural sparkle. Try comparing the stone you're considering side-by-side with a diamond that you know to be real.

-- Ask if it is real. It sounds crazy, but asking, "Is this a real diamond or a synthetic stone?" might throw a scammer off his game. He very well may back down and tell the truth about the stone. If this happens, run, don't walk, out of the store and report your experience to the Better Business Bureau.

- Have the stone appraised. It's worth the extra expense to have peace of mind regarding this very important purchase. An independent appraiser (don't settle for the one that the store recommends) can put your mind at ease while giving you key details to help you to gauge whether or not the price you plan to pay is fair. You may even wish to take the investigation one step further by requesting a report from a grading laboratory such as the Gemological Institute of America (GIA) or the American Gem Society Laboratories (AGSL)

The process of spotting a fake diamond might be tedious, but with the improvement in look-alikes, it's important to take your jewelry store experience and the risk of fraud very seriously to make certain that your diamond purchase is as solid as a rock.

11-25 Thought For The Day:

No one is perfect... that's why pencils have erasers.

PSA: feet.

OMG. what is up with folks not wanting to take care of their feet??? I personally have a foot phobia and feet jes disgust me! So yesterday I was walking into the post office and this lady who was riding her bike goes in right before me. Well I have a bad habit of looking at people's shoes when the approach me or walk by. Don't ask why, that's jes me.. always peepin the shoe-game. But anyways I look down and I SWEAR I threw up in my mouth at least twice that quick!! Her heels looked like she had been playing in the rocks at a kids playground and had never seen an ounce of lotion in their lives! I mean doesn't that HURT??!! I know if my skin gets even slightly dry i go into freak out mode that quick! haha. Ughh.

THEN today I was at work and this lady walked by wearing some flip flops with her NASTY ASS HELLS hanging out the back of her shoes looking like they were jes SCREAMIN for a pedicure!

Therefore I am making a plea to the world: pppuuulllleeeeaassseeee if you are going to where sandals or shoes that show your feet PLEASE do the rest of the world a favor and scrub the damn calluses off them hoez and throw sum lotion on them! If that doesn't seem possible, do us all a favor and keep the socks nd shoes on!
Thank You =)

This has been a Public Service Announcement courtesy of JuJu. You can now resume to your regularly scheduled blogging.

Monday, November 24, 2008

my reflection.

its like im looking in the mirror and all i see is a reflection of myself.
but smaller and younger.
your attitude is a carbon copy of mine.
your facial expressions mock mine to a 't'.
you have a connection to my inner thoughts that amazes me.
i never would have imagined i could have done it.
but i have.
and will continue to do so to the best of my ability.
for you are a creature of me, that relfects me and embodies me.
you are and always will be, my lil angel; "BB".

U.M.C - CoMMoN.

common is def the truth. last seen him perform at the southern comfort musik festival in daygo this summer -- cant wait for his album to finally drop on 12.09.08!

dr. pepper; FREE.

Dr Pepper is making good on its promise of free soda now that the release of Guns N' Roses' "Chinese Democracy" is a reality.

The soft-drink maker said in March that it would give a free soda to everyone in America if the album dropped in 2008. "Chinese Democracy," infamously delayed since recording began in 1994, goes on sale Sunday.

"We never thought this day would come," Tony Jacobs, Dr Pepper's vice president of marketing, said in a statement. "But now that it's here, all we can say is: The Dr Pepper's on us."

Beginning Sunday at 12:01 a.m., coupons for a free 20-ounce soda will be available for 24 hours on Dr Pepper's Web site. They'll be honored until Feb. 28.


Everyone in America has until 6 PM EST on Monday, November 24 to get a free 20 oz. Dr Pepper - That's 3 PM TODAY for us in California!

**be patient with the site, there's a lot of traffic on it due to the demand so may take a while, but it's legit.

Click here to get a Free Dr Pepper for a limited time.

The rich, bold flavor of Dr Pepper provides a taste like no other. That's because Dr Pepper is made with an authentic blend of 23 flavors, which gives you real refreshment. With Dr Pepper, there's more flavor, more taste, and more to enjoy. There's more to it.

**UPDATE: This offer has now closed.

11-24 Thought For The Day:

Fear less, hope more; eat less, chew more; whine less, breathe more; talk less, say more; hate less, love more; and all good things are yours.

~Swedish Proverb

Sunday, November 23, 2008

UNT!TLED; bff.

lately i have been doing a lot of thinking and i feel its time i go and re-evaluate some "relationships" and people in my life. it's like im at a point in my life where i know so many people, yet most of the time feel so alone. i could count the number of people who whole-heartily care about me on one hand; & that's including my family. i am surrounded by sum great people in my life but most of the time everyone is so caught up in their own worlds they forget the simple things or people in their lifes. i'm the type of person who doesn't let people in very easily, but once you are in i expect you to be there; or at least act like you care at times. there's some people who claim to be "this" - or claim to be "that" but where are you really at?? i don't need or want any part time friends in my life. with that being said, i wanna thank you BFF for always being there. No matter what. You have always held me down and stuck by my side no matter what. Just like all BFF's we may have a disagreement here or there but nothing or nobody has ever or will ever break us. i couldn't do it without you in this cold harsh world. so with that being said i'm gonna go into low-key mode. it's just me and you BFF. love you.

M·A·C -n- Hello Kitty Collection

So I tuned into LaaLaa's blog today to find out whaat??; all my prayers had been answered!! haha.

MAC Cosmetics has teamed up with Sanrio Global Consumer Products to create a Hello Kitty color cosmetics collection. The line will arrive on MAC’s Web site Feb. 10, in North American stores on Feb. 12 and into overseas stores in March.

“MAC has been mining pop culture since the brand was founded,” said John Demsey, group president of the Estée Lauder Cos. Inc. “This is a sexy and innocent fashion line, and a true MAC moment. In these times, everyone can use a little fun — and a little Kitty.”

“To me, MAC Hello Kitty embodies the ultimate beauty icon,” said Jennifer Balbier, senior vice president of product development for MAC Worldwide. “She’s sweet and sexy, slightly edgy, and appeals to a wide range of customers. We wanted to reflect that through a sweet side, but also something slightly mischievous when it came to the colors. I started out by creating a palette of pinks, since they fit and always trend well in the spring. And this look is so much about the eyes that we did two eye shadow quads.” The Lucky Tom quad has violet blue, brown, gold and pink-coral shades, while the Too Dolly palette has mint, blue-silver, pale pink and magenta shades.

“We incorporated glitter eyeliners because she loves anything that twinkles, and we took the coral and hot pink theme and did pretty, poppy [colored] blush,” added Balbier.

While this collection is intended to have a sophisticated presentation, MAC hopes to appeal to younger fans with two shades of lip conditioners.

The Hello Kitty offerings fall into two collections:
The Hello Kitty Colour Collection & the more high-end Hello Kitty Kouture.

Hello Kitty Color Collection:


6 lipsticks ($14)

6 lipglass ($14)

2 tinted lip conditioner ($14.50)


2 palettes ($38) -- Lucky Tom Quad: violet-blue, brown, gold, and pink coral shades; Too Dolly Quad: mint, blue-silver, pale pink, and magenta shades

2 pigments ($19.50)

2 reflects glitter ($17.50) -- blue and pink

4 glitter eyeliners ($16.50)

black mascara ($12)

false eyelashes ($12)


2 beauty powders ($22) -- a coral, poppy colored and hot pink blush

3 nail polish ($11)

Hello Kitty Kouture:

2 Dazzleglasses ($28) -- with reusable silver chain pendant encrusted with Swarovski crystals

3 Sheer Mystery Powder ($90) -- silver compact with Swarovski crystals; Available only in MAC Stores and

(Available at MAC stores,, and Nordstrom only)

Plush doll ($42)

3 brush collection ($49.50)

(Available at MAC stores and

mirror ($22)

beaded bracelet ($34)


tote ($45)

soft vanity ($55)

And Demsey promises the surprises aren’t over yet. “There will be more products to come in the next three months with this partnership,” he said.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

MOB; gimme!!!

a few more "must have" items to add to my collectionn from Married to the Mob! i'm leaning more for the first jacket versus the Hellz Bellz black one.. hummm decisions decisions!!

Friday, November 21, 2008

my Fall/Winter wants; hellz bellz.

and my ABSOLUTE FAV mz minnie and dauche have already posted this jacket on their page giving it it's props but i def think im abt to cop it!!! Don't be surprised when you see me around town in it soon ;)

hellz bellz is def on they shxt!! you can check these products out and more on karma loop!

addicted; already!!

YO!!! you def need to go check out Nellz Stories "The Good Life". She's only on chapter four.. nd I am already addicted!! Keep up the good work ma, can't wait for chapter five to be posted!!

11-21 Thought For The Day:

The most important thing in life is to learn how to love; and to let love come in.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

1.99?? word!!

i damn near had a wreck on my way home today!! i was driving down the road and in the corner of my eye i caught a gas station that had some 1.99 gas!! it's still almost 2.30 by my job so to see gas 30 cents cheaper i was all on it!! i drove down a lil further and noticed another gas station at the same price and thought to myself.. YES that's what im talkin about! hahaha.. better fill up before they change their mind again and gas goes back up to almost 3 bucks!

T Pain; Karaoke.

There's been lots of controversy over the whole "auto tune" on all the new hits lately. So leave it up to T Pain to make a song to officially dis all these other rappers so called swagger-jackin his style. He def gives props that he is not the original one to come out with this.. but he def made it what it is.

T Pain is now going as far to even say that other rappers should pay him royalties. He said Diddy did it, everyone else should follow. He states: "Diddy actually gave me royalties on this album just for using Auto-Tune. He signed the contract and everything. If I can do that with Diddy, somebody else better be signing something. It's Diddy. He didn't have to involve me at all. I'm writing and producing on his album, and he gave me extra royalties on top of that for using something I just brought back."

T Pain specifically dissed Ron Browz, saying he used the auto tune poorly. And especially dissing the new hit "Pop Champagne".

T Pain's latest album "Thr33 Ringz" came out last Tuesday and is debuted at #4 on Billboard albums sales chart. For those of you who are T Pain fans, make sure to go cop that. It def features a variety of guests and is featured to be more up-tempo songs than his last cd, which btw I loved!

Listen to both and judge for yourself..

11-20 Thought For The Day:

If you surrender to the wind, you can ride it.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Beautifully; skinny. GROSS.

I am sitting here watching last Sunday's episode of Desperate Housewives that I missed and can't help but notice as Bree ((Marcia Cross)) is talking just HOW SKINNY she is getting! Now she's always been a very small person as it is, but lately she seems to be getting even bonier. As she was sitting there carrying on a conversation I couldn't even pay attention to what she was saying because all I kept staring at was her bones damn near ready to pop outta her chest and collar bone!

I started to google it so I could find a pic of it to post on here for discussion.. no luck there. But I did come across this pic, and several others like it. And surprisingly with all these pics woman were actually talking about how BEAUTIFUL it was and how much they envied this look and strived to become this way!

Are you serious??? Is this what "beauty" is now defined as? If that's the case I don't think I want to ever be "beautiful". Just so sad if you ask me.

BB StoRM;.

It's finally almost here!! Yay!! For you Blackberry fans!! The first touch-screen BlackBerry smartphone will go on sale in the US November 21st!

The phone comes pre-loaded with consumer-friendly applications such as Google mail and maps, Yahoo's Flickr photo-sharing service and a specially adapted version of social network Facebook. And if you are already a BB user you know about all the other features you can add to it!

The BlackBerry Storm's touch screen indents slightly when it is pressed, and keys on the on-screen keyboard light up when hovered over, reducing the potential for mis-typing that many users experience with touch-screen keyboards.

Will Blackberry measure up to the iPhone and G1 rival?? We will just have to wait til this Friday and find out! This is a def MUST HAVE for me!

Check out the website for more details and information.

11-19 Thought For The Day:

Hurt Quotes Pictures, Images and Photos

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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

11-18 Thought For The Day:

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