Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Almost made you cry
Almost made you happy baby
Didnt I; didnt I
You almost had me thinkin'
You were turned around
But everybody knows
Almost doesnt count
Almost heard you saying
You were finally free
What was always missing for you baby
Youd found it in me
But you cant get to heaven
Half off the ground
Almost doesnt count
"a night full of passion can give you a lifetime of pain..
there's a thin line between love and hate."
hope it was worth it.
Thin Line Between Love and Hate.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
i have to do it. i have never in my life felt so unpretty; so unwanted; so alone; so depressed. its like i jes want to go to sleep and never wake up again..
but i cant...
i have a child who has nobody else but me. so in order for me to be able to get strong for him; i have to remove myself.
don't bother calling, texting, im'ing - i am removing myself from blogger, twitter, myspace, aim, my phone, the club; any and everything. i wont delete these things cus i hope to one day be strong enuff to return; but for now... this is farewell.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
make it go away..
so i am seriously thinking abt cancelling my blog page.. idk; i havent decided yet. i love my blog page and the fact i can come on here and talk abt anything and everything and you guys are always here for me no matter what. you dont judge or criticize; just simply read and comment and lift my spirits up. well lately i have been going thru so much; hell i am not gonna lie the past three months, possibly even four months have been soooo hard for me. i have been thru so much in these past few months; more than a lot of people go thru in a whole year! with each obstacle i think it has GOT TO GET BETTER from here; it WILL get better - and sure enough some other bullshit goes down. i swear its like it NEVER ends. my life seriously needs its own reality tv show. i feel like i live my life right; i am always there for people when they need it and always willing to lend a hand or whatever is needed. so why is it bad shxt keeps happening to me? do i not deserve to be happy as well? i have got to the point in life where i am even questioning my own existence in life. so with that i am falling back in life. i may not cancel this page, but i may not be as active as i usually am on it - so for that please forgive me in advance. i really just need time to sit back and reflect on life and figure out what i am going to do and how to get thru all this mess. i am trying to make some shxt work where i can move. i just need to get away. i dont feel welcomed or wanted here anymore; like i have somewhat exceeded my time limit here in san diego. so we shall see how that goes. last night i stayed in the house; did a lot of thinking - crying - reflecting. it was my girls bachlorette party; and im sorry i wasnt able to make it. my other girls all went out and they said they had a blast. i just couldnt do it. too many factors where going against me being out last night. i needed a night for me. don't forget tonite is the official pitbull afterparty at belo. so i will have to pull my shxt together and suck it up for the fam. there's gotta be brighter days around the corner.. until then; all i can do is hope and pray..
Friday, March 20, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
the same two lovers; all over each other
when it hurts; will we still see
what we got together; promise that we'll never
never ever be
temporary (not another) ; ordinary (uh uh)
we should change people's definition of love
so forget what you heard
the only way that this will work
is if you love me when it hurts...
for the rest check the playlist nd jes listen ---->
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Have you ever wanted something you couldn't have? and the thrill of the chase made you want that object or even that person, even more than you ever thought possible? Its like the saying goes, you always want what you cant have. But what if after the chase, and you work so hard to obtain your price, you get it - and you don’t want it anymore??
I feel like that’s how men are. You always want what you cant have. And once you get it, that person is useless to you. The thrill of the chase, the game, is no longer fun to you anymore. So then you feel you can dismiss your newfound object at your discretion. Or maybe it is not a newfound object. Maybe it is an old crush that will always have a lil part of your heart. You feel like you are strong; and have moved on from this person - until you see this person out and about or whatever and all those feelings that you thought you had pushed away come rushing back to you. You want this person - you NEED this person back in your life again. You start to question why did I ever let go in the first place?? So you work hard to get back with this person. You say all the right things and do all the right things, meanwhile knowing in your heart you are not ready to give up the games you have begun to take a liking to in life. Never realizing that this other person has feelings and emotions as well; that while you are playing your lil game - this person could be hurting. But you are blind to all this - for all you see is the prize at the end of the finish line.
So let’s say you start to win this “game” and then what? The closer you get to the end; the more you start to push away wondering what the heck did I jes get myself into? So you basically start to disappear. Well before you even start on this cat-mouse chase; remember that the grass isn't always greener on the other side. Hold on to the things you value in life because once you let them go… they may never come back.
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
Monday, March 16, 2009
May we never let the things we can't have, or don't have, or shouldn't have, spoil our enjoyment of the things we do have and can have. As we value our happiness let us not forget it, for one of the greatest lessons in life is learning to be happy without the things we cannot or should not have.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
pS. i sprained my ankle last night leaving the club ((all bad)) so am layin lowkey icin' it up with some TLC
Thursday, March 12, 2009
i aint never been no silly bitch; waiting to get rich
from a ni&&a's bank account
i have always had my own things; bought my own rings
not gonna let you catch me out
you should take a lesson from me; i aint the one to be
depending on someone else
i can run a scam before he can; better than a man
i always keep my game on this
Saturday, March 7, 2009
You lie the loudest when you lie to yourself.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge..