When you come to the end of all the light you know, and it's time to step into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing that one of two things shall happen: Either you will be given something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
So y0u want a heart??
y0u d0n;t kn0w h0w
lucky y0u are t0 n0t have 0ne.
Heart;s w!ll never be pract!cal unt!l
they can be made unbreakable -- Wizard of Oz
Commitment is what transforms a promise into reality. It is the words that speak boldly of your intentions. And the actions which speak louder than the words. It is making the time when there is none. Coming through time after time after time, year after year after year. Commitment is the stuff character is made of; the power to change the face of things. It is the daily triumph of integrity over skepticism.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
I'm sorry I was never GOOD enough..
I'm sorry my waist line was never SLIM enough..
I'm sorry you felt I couldn't handle my emotions WELL enough..
I'm sorry my bank account wasn't BIG enough..
I'm sorry you felt loving you with my all wasn't STRONG enough..
I'm sorry me valueing friendships nd fam made you feel you'd HAD enough..
I'm sorry you didn't believe "To Love and Honor" MEANT enough..
I'm sorry "til death do us part" wasn't LONG enough..
I'm sorry I wasn't PRETTY enough..
I'm sorry me holdin you accountable for your words WASN'T enough..
I'm sorry you believe that having only your boys is JUST enough..
I'm sorry but for your games I wasn't DUMB enough..
I'm sorry I felt I tried MORE than enough..
I'm sorry my ALL wasn't ALL enough..
But as I lay here, my pillow drenched in tears.. I have finally decided ENOUGH is enough..
Friday, September 26, 2008
Make no little plans; they have no magic to stir men's blood and probably themselves will not be realized. Make big plans; aim high in hope and work, remembering that a noble, logical diagram once recorded will not die, but long after we are gone be a living thing, asserting itself with ever-growing insistence.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
So last night was my first night of being focused and trying to put my "plan" into action. Got home from work and made me and Bryson a small healthy lil dinner then got ready to head to the gym. Once I got there started off by doing some cardio, then worked on the "pooch", then weights, more "pooch" work (hah), and finished it off with running. I weighed myself afterwards just to get an estimate of what my weight was at the gym so I could be working on those figures during my journey and let's just say that scale was a few more pounds heavier than the one at home! LOL.. but I'm not gonna get discouraged! Gonna keep my weight loss goal at what it is right now for the first 2 weeks, then after that maybe shoot for a few more pounds! We shall see! I'm not tryna look too skinny now I think a lil meat on everyone is healthy ;) I definately left the gym feeling refreshed and even more motivated than when I started.
Since I was still pumped and ready to go, but the KidsZone closed at the gym so had to go cuz Bry was with us, we decided to stop by the store and I bought a Pilates DVD. When I got home I did the 10 minute ab workout and the 10 minute upper arm workout. Wewwhhh... 10 minutes doesn't seem like a long time but BOY o BOY was that a good lil workout!!! haha.. woke up this morning feeling sore (but in a good way) all in my arms!! My "pooch" still has more work to go so didn't feel it as much there.. but I def feel last night was a great start!!!
Back to the gym tonite.. and mucho THANKS to CeCe for going to the gym with me and keeping me PUMPED and ready to go!!!
Til next time...
Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results.
OMG apparently something STUPID happened with my blogspot when editing it and I lost ALL my shzt!! So I had to redo my page.. just gonna post my all posts on here as an FYI so they are there :( All previous blogs before today are posted below ((of course all comments and side notes where lost as well))...
PS.. Please be patient with me as I update everything and relink your blogs.. and make sure you go back and follow my new blog ;)
Okk.. so my weight has always been up and down since forever and every since I had Bryson it's kinda been more on the "up" size ((mainly just my stomach aka as I like to call it, my "pooch")) compared to what I am used to being. Now don't get me wrong, by no means do I think I am "FAT".. I am just a lil chunky with some problem areas that need to be worked on. I keep telling myself I am going to do this.. or do that.. or workout more, eat healthier.. and I do SOO good and start seeing great results.. then I get lazy and comfortable again.. and POOOFF those results disappear just as quickly as they started to show!
Recently a few very CLOSE people have noticed my weight gain and made comments to me about it.. it's really had me down and depressed and ready to break down and go eat a twinkies.. haha.. just kidding I dont even like twinkies.. but you know what I'm saying! But today I've FINALLY decided I am not gonna let it get me down, but yet encourage me (which I know that's all they are trying to do in the first place).
I have a weight loss goal of 7lbs right now. Then after that I will set a new goal to maintain that weight and stay fit. Not only do I want to loose the weight, I want to tone up with it too and feel more confident about my body. I have pretty much cut out fast foods all together and sodas and am going to stick to a good healthy diet, lots of H20 and maintain a workout schedule. My goal is to loose this weight by my birthday.. that's TWO WEEKS. So about 3-4 pounds a week, I can do it, right?!
Okk so here goes!!! The workout begins tonite!! Stay tuned for updates..
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-- an oldie but a goodie --
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Love the ones who don't just because you can. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Kiss slowly. Forgive quickly. God never said life would be easy. He just promised it would be worth it.
You've got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you're not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice.
Stuff your eyes with wonder . . . live as if you'd drop dead in ten seconds. See the world. It's more fantastic than any dream made or paid for in factories.
The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears.
IF I KNEW
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say 'I love you,'
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.
There will l always be another day
to say 'I love you,'
And certainly there's another chance
to say our 'Anything I can do?'
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you' ll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say 'I'm sorry,'
'Please forgive me,' 'Thank you,' or 'It's okay.'
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.
Just got back from dropping off my cans and bottles folks... and wanted to remind yal to REDUCE, REUSE and RECYCLE!!
RECYCLING MAKES MORE SENSE THAN EVER --
You'd have a hard time finding a reason why NOT to recycle bottles and cans. After all, if you throw them away, it's a waste of natural resources, a waste of energy and a waste of money. An aluminum can, for example, can sit in a landfill taking decades to decompose, or it can be recycled and be back on the shelf in about 90 days, thereby:
* Reducing the need for virgin bauxite ore
* Saving enough energy to run a television for almost three hours
* Putting cash in the pocket of the person who took it to the recycling center (pssshh and I'm all for the cash back in the pocket!)
I mean come on folks.. here in California we are already paying the CRV when we buy our beverages, might as well go turn it back in and get our change back.. and remember.. change turns into dollars!! Yay!
Not only that.. take the few extra minutes to stick the paper and cardboard in the recycling boxes and bins. Takes a few extra seconds of your day to seperate it when throwing it out.. But could mean a lifetime for our Earth!
Lets try to clean up this planet so Bryson's generation and the ones to follow have a nice clean Earth to live their life on!
ndd BIGUPPS to Teresa for Recycling today too!!
GO GREEN!!! =)
Never allow anyone to rain on your parade and thus cast a pall of gloom and defeat on the entire day. Remember that no talent, no self-denial, no brains, no character, are required to set up in the fault-finding business. Nothing external can have any power over you unless you permit it. Your time is too precious to be sacrificed in wasted days combating the menial forces of hate, jealously, and envy. Guard your fragile life carefully. Only God can shape a flower, but any foolish child can pull it to pieces.
So last night we had a lil girls night and went to go see Tyler Perry's movie "The Family That Preys".. and I def do say this is a good movie! I have always enjoyed all of his movies and have yet to be disappointed! The movie is actually pretty touching at a few points. I love how Tyler Perry always relys a spiritual message within his movies as well. There are so many movies out there that are basically a joke nowadays, its good to see there are a few still with substance and meaning.
The movie just came out this weekend and stars Alfre Woodard, Kathy Bates, Sanaa Lathan, Rockmond Dunbar, Robin Givens, my girl Taraji P. Henson (you'll remember her from Baby Boy) and of course Tyler Perry.
.. SoOoOo if you haven't seen it yet, go see it! Tyler Perry does it again! This will def be one for the DVD collection.
People are like stained-glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in,
their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.
So we all know TI sampled MIA's song "Paper Planes" for the new hit "Swagger Like Us"..
The video is crazy.. def some old school for ya.. hah.. Check em out.. Which do you prefer??
MIA - Paper Planes
T.I. - Swagger Like Us ft. Kanye West, Jay-Z, Lil Wayne
OMG.. Is it so hard to find a nail shop out here in daygo that does a GOOD job??? I mean.. I am not too picky, all I ask for is santitized equipment, strait filing and decent french tips... and MAYBE on certain occassions a pretty lil o flower!!
I went to get my nails done today and ended up having to go to two different nail shops just to be "okay" with my nails. I took them off not too long ago after getting irritated with my last nail shop I was very faithful to.
I mean LADIES is there any decent places left out there??? Letcha girl know.
On that note... check this jamm by Kid Sister ft/Kayne West..
Okk.. to put some of the "rumors" and "suspicions" to rest...
YES, I did get married.
I am officially Mrs. McCall (8.2.08) and own that name very proudly. I know some of you have noticed the changes on either mine or Brian's myspace page, or if you are on my facebook you will see my name very boldly at the top. We didn't tell everyone when it happened because we kinda wanted to tell those select few close in our lives when we felt the time was right. Of course we had the blessing from both our parents before it happened, but other than that, we just felt it was right and acted upon it.
We have both came so far and been thru so much in our relationship and I know there is nobody else I would rather spend the rest of my life with than him. He is truly my rock in life. Brian has completely turned his life around to be the man he felt I deserved and I couldn't ask for anything more. He has become the perfect husband, father and best friend I could ever ask for. He always knows the right things to say when I need to hear it the most, good or bad lol. A lot of people don't understand the kind of relationship me and him have based on some of the things we have been thru. But that's okk.. Just know that we are both blessed and truly happy and love each other very much.. We are finally living our "Happily Ever After"..
"Nothing that is worth doing can be achieved in our lifetime;
Therefore, we must be saved by hope.
Nothing which is true, or beautiful, or good, makes complete sense in any immediate context of history;
Therefore, we must be saved by faith.
Nothing we do, however virtuous, could be accomplished alone;
Therefore, we must be saved by love.
No virtuous act is quite as virtuous from the standpoint of our friend or foe as it is from our own standpoint;
Therefore, we must be saved by the final form of love, which is forgiveness."
Lets just say some of life's lessons are learned the hard way. Never give up on your loved ones. I'm just gonna leave today's thought at that..
This boy is a hot mess right now looking like an old person with NO TEETH!! LOL
"Nothing is predestined: The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings."
Today marks the seventh anniversary of the attacks that killed nearly 3,000 people. Let us not forget that each day is a blessing and never guaranteed. Live each day to the fullest. Have no regrets. Tell your loved ones how much you really love them. Hug and kiss your kids. Be with and do what makes you happy. Take chances on the unknown.. Embrace each day and opportunity to the fullest. You wouldn't have to wonder "what if or i should have" later on would you...
With that being said I let all my friends and fam know how much you mean to me!! I love each and every one of you with all my heart! Thanks for always being everything I need when I need it the most!!! =)
September 11, 2008
Whats Good World... So I honestly feel that myspace seems to create a lot of tension and unnecessary drama and is honestly getting real played out for me. Not just particularly referring to myself, but just for many people I know in general. So I am going to start using myspace pretty much for networking purposes only. Gonna try to keep the personal life and myspace seperate.. with that being said.. I always seem to have something to say.. so figured instead of posting my "Dear Diary" entries or my "Thought For the Day" on myspace, I will post them here. My own personal page for expressing whatever is on my mind or whatever I may be going thru at any given point or time. You can read what I have to say, or not, either way..