update; "hate".

Hola my lovely blogger fam!! :) i just wanted to give everyone an update on my post "hate" and wanted to say thank you to everyone for expressing your opinions; i know i didn't comment back on everyone like i usually do; i jes needed some time to reflect - but i read each reply and took it to heart and let it marinate.. everyone's reply meant something to me and i took each and every thought into consideration.. i think dauche's reply hit me the hardest cus it was so true. its like you build up this frustration, have to vent and let it out.. then you jes dont care anymore. so i am FINALLY; praise the Lord; to that point! Yay for JuJu!! =]

i am doing MUUUCCHH better than when i posted this blog previously ((notice; I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW is no longer the leading song playing haha)) There is no more hate in this chica's heart; only love.. hehe. I had such a WONDERFUL weekend this past weekend. it was stress free; drama free; and jes carefree.
Thank you to everyone who made it ooo so special ;)

THANKS LOVES!! x0x0.

hate.

hate;
VERB:
1) To feel hostility or animosity toward.
2) To detest.

NOUN:
1) Intense animosity or dislike; hatred.
2) An object of detestation or hatred.

this is a word i like to try to stay away from as much as possible becus it is such a strong word. i have got to the point where i have strongly disliked something or someone; but usually try to refrain from the word "hate" becus it packs so much meaning behind that lil four letter word. unfortunately YOU have made me this person i no longer wanna be. i hate you; i hate the day i met you; i hate how i cant change the past & it has ruined our future; i hate how you treat me and how you make me feel; i hate how you can belittle me making me think i am not shxt or good enuff; i hate how you bring me so up, jes to knock me down to reality so hard; i hate how you can tell me one thing & never mean it; i hate how YOU can have so much HATRED towards someone you say you "love"; i hate how much i love you; i hate how you have created this hate in my heart..

-- tunes into kelis on ipod to drown out thoughts; "i hate you so much right now" aahhhh.