Thursday, February 19, 2009

UNT!TLED; life.

So life has been very confusing; yet good lately. I've been going thru so many changes and becoming a different person in so many ways. But I believe its all for the best. I am growing into a better, more spiritual woman. I have lost some friends ; but gained some wonderful ones as well. ((Shouts out to my new bff; athena christine - hehe))

Thinking about my thought for today really got me thinking. I truly believe some people are brought into your life for a reason, where others are merely there for a season. And there are def a few people I want to remain for a lifetime. I do not regret knowing any of the people I have met along my journey in life. I have gained and learned something with each experience. But sometimes we "outgrow" each other or the friendship ((or relationship for some of you guys)). There has to be a time in everyones life where you have to evaluate the situation and realize when to let go; or when to hold on tighter. Some people I have decided to let go in my life and after a deep meaningful conversation I had last night; I realized sometimes I need to hold on a little tighter and despite what I may be going thru make sure people never feel unappreciated. I would never want to loose someone I love or care about because I was too caught up in elimating the negative in my life; I forgot to stop and take time to appreciate the positive that still remains.

In the past year I have gone thru so much. I left all my friends and family back home to start a new life. A new family. It's such a scary thought when you think about it. I have accomplished more in the past year then some people do in a lifetime. I am proud for that. But sometimes I doubt myself. I forget to look at all that I have accomplished and worry about what I have not. I am my own worst critic. I miss everyone back home very much; but I feel I was brought here for a reason and despite some of the downfalls I have occured while out here; I wouldnt change it cus it only brought me closer to the people I love and the people who need to be in my life.

With all this being said I just wanted to say thank you for believing in me even when I forget to believe in myself and never giving up on me. I know I am not always the nicest person in the world (hummm.. okk we all know I dominate the "bitch" status majority of the time) but deep down I do have one of the most loving & giving hearts out there. God has brought you in my life for a reason; and for those of you who have stood thru the rain with me thru it all - I will never forget that. And for those of you who ran when shxt didn't go your way? I am still happy you were apart of my life for that season. I am the person I am today because of each and every one of you.

Til next time.. x0x0.

13 comments:

Athena Christine. said...

;] yay for new BFF's. Yes, I totally feel you on this WHOLE BLOG. That's great that you've accomplished a lot in the past year. I'm proud of you! Yeah, this may sound reallll corny! But you are the coolest chick ever! LOL. No joke. Cheers to my new BFF! ;] I have an idea for your next blog post...stalkers. ;] LOL. Let me stop. <3

JuJu said...

awwhhh making me blush!! was corny but SOOO SWEET! made my day! haha. pssh and you kno you are the shxnit too ; we are tooo much alike ;) told ya people are brought into our lives for a reason :)

and bwaaahhahahaa ; good idea!! imma go merinate on that and see what we can come up with!! hahaa

kmx. said...

I understand you a 100% on this post. Your thought for the day really has me thinking now, like you said I don't want to get all caught up in pushing out the negativity only to lose touch with those people who really are there for me...you know just what to say JuJu ;)

JuJu said...

thank you ma :)

Princess Katrina said...

I know how you feel. I'm in the process of getting out and starting my own family, and gets scary. Stay positive baby girl! Everything will be great in a little while. Time makes everything better!

JuJu said...

very tru - thanks ma!

LaaLaa said...

awwww sweetie, all this is making you so much stronger and wiser. You've accomplished so much and grown so much more <3 were all proud of you and rooting for you to be more stronger and wiser <3 loves u

Jillian said...

self-awareness..it's a beautiful thing :)...there seems to be a lot of that going around lately..

as long as you keep this train of thought..nothing is too much to overcome :)...

one of my best friends use to always say...life is funny that way..she gives you the TEST before the lesson...so you've been tested and you see why...and look where it has got you...eyes forward mama keep it movin!

Miss.Stefanie said...

Juju--You are an amazing woman- You always make me smile and always care. I see you are a strong bad ass woman. I am proud to have you in mi vida mamas!

Taylorgotbeats said...

yea hopefully all the change is for the best damn I haven't been on your blog in a minute

Ran said...

Ju you are a beautiful woman and you always bring a smile to my face. You are strong, intelligent, funny, and just an all around great woman. Some women out here need to take notes from you chica! Keep ya head up always and do you!

Hugs & Kisses

Anjl Marie said...

HEY MAMAS I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH I KNOW I'VE BEEN KINDA QUIET BUT I LOVE ALL THE LOVE THAT YO'VE BEEN THROWIN AT ME

THANKS CUZ IT REALLY HAS BEEN HELPING ME

Teia said...

Aww well girl..you are one of the most STRONGEST..chic's I know..and smartest..you deserve anything GOOD that comes ur way and thats no lie..you work soo hard for everything and seem to always keep ur head up!! alot of us wish we were more like you! Your are a GREAT mom and person!! Keep doing what ur doing and dont let anyone get u down!! love you & miss you as always!!

 
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