my letter to you..

dear you;

so it's been exactly 14 days since we last met. i used to think i had to have you in my world every day. your toxins were vital to my daily existence. i thought you made me a better person. carefree; didn't give a fxck and took away all my problems whenever we were together.

but i was wrong. you took me to the lowest point i have ever experienced in my life. made me wanna give up on everything i had ever hoped and dreamed for. i had to sit back and evaluate the pros vs. cons with our relationship. lately the bad had def outweighed the good.

so i had to let you go. will you ever return? maybe one day. maybe not. but never will i let you control my world, my mind, my thoughts, my actions, my beliefs again. you had took over my entire night life and made me a different person. for the better i thought; but boy was i wrong.

i hit rock bottom after our last encounter and wasnt sure how to get up and recover from such an abusive relationship. but i have decided to get up and pick up the pieces where we had left off; dusting myself off as i become a better, stronger, wiser person since our last encounter.

due to the events that occurred because of our relationship; it def caused me to open my eyes. appreciate life. never take things for granted. as bad as you think things may be; they can always become worse - and you made me see that. so for that; i do thank you.


Until we meet again, x0x0.



((pS. for those who don't know this letter is to my dear former friend "alcohol"))