currently;

i have never really felt so alone in my life. which is ironic becus i am a loner and usually do things on my own.. never had much family around ; always just kinda did for myself. but lately i have felt so alone. so sad. so lost & confused. as you all know i have been going thru hell and back lately. each day i think ; "its gotta be better today" & then something else happens. it doesnt stop. seriously. & i am not writing this post cus i want pity or to hear "it'll get better" - i know this already. i just feel myself slowly sinking into a depression and hate it. i need a hug.. i just need things to be 'okay' in my life again.