& the verdict is..

i am here to stay!
at least for a lil bit longer - turns out God must not be done with me here yet.. I went to an interview yesterday & was basically offered the job before I even got out the building! all this came out of no where too - which is why i feel it is truly meant to be. i was set on leaving. i was ready to leave. was already getting things in order to move back to texas - got called in to talk to this recruiter, went thinking maybe i could work a side job until i left for some extra money - she told me about this opportunity & asked me to interview for it.. so that's what i did yesterday!! when i left it was "90% confirmed" that the job was mine - but last night, i officially had the job offer! i really couldnt ask for much more in a company or position either - seems like everything i would want! unfortunately, it is a paycut, but i really feel like it will be worth it and pay off in the longterm.

on that note.

i still am not giving up on school! i have to go thru the probationary period before the job is officially permanent - so that gives me 90 days to prove myself and see if this is what i really want. & if it isnt - i can move back to Dallas this summer after bryson finishes school.. on top of that, gives me time to finish my dui classes. so then, from there, i can decide what to do about the job & if everything goes as planned go ahead and start night school! in the meantime i am going to go ahead and try to get my MUA (makeup artist) certification & do some advanced training that is being offered thru MAC.

i am not giving up on my dreams! i feel like everything will fall into place the way it is meant to be. & that sure seems like what is happening. AND since it looks like i am not going to be moving to Dallas as soon as i thought, i do believe a visit is in store - AllStar Weekend, whos down? :)

crossRoads.

okay so i did it again, said i wasnt going to neglect you anymore - and i have! my deepest apologies.. things have been just crazy busy since my last post.. my job ended that i was working at, work was just real slow - kinda knew it was coming.. still wasn't the most happiest person in the world when i found out i was being laid off tho. i qualify for unemployment, but the state of california is so screwy what i would get for unemployment doesnt even make it worth it. i tried to get back enrolled in school too - but i really want to go fulltime if i do, and because my unemployment isnt even close to minimum wage -- that's not going to happen.

so as of today, i am at a crossroads.

i could go back to texas and go to school fulltime and have the support i need with my son - or should i give it more time to make something work in california? hmmm. i was pretty much set on going ahead and coming back to texas in order to better my life. i am more focused now, so would def have my head on strait and get what i need done in order to better myself and my life. but of course, things are never as easy as they seem. bryson is in the middle of a semester - and i have a few more months of my dui classes left. it would kinda suck to have to transfer all of that to a new state when i could just leave it behind here.

while pondering this decision..

i got a call yesterday! met with some people & have some more things to handle today. a wonderful opportunity has presented itself to me, now i have to see if it goes thru. i have prayed and prayed about this - not one way or another, but for God's way. whatever he has meant for me - will happen. i have 100 percent faith.

with that being said.. i will keep you posted - today is a big day for me!! :)